haizzzzzzzzzz... dunno gotten wat illness lo... mid of the night got red swollen rashes...
damn so itchy la... feel sooooo miserable... then my sis n her hubby brought mi to
kallang best clinic and have a jab... Doc said after 1 jab normal ppl will recover le..
but then... sob sob... it onli recover for a while.. then the nxt day.. then rashes came
back again... haiz... then i go for another jab...the doc said first time seen b4 so serious de
.. the nurse also said she work for 10 yrs plus.. nv c b4.. ppl will come back again after the first jab...
after the 2nd jab... i m damn tired... feel so dizzy and restless...i thought tt after tt will recover le...
but then... i was wrong... the rashes came back again... wah i cant slp for already 3-4 days already...
Night i have hardd time slpin... damn itchy.. till i silver in the mid of the night.. and i scratch till
my skin was damn pain..haiz... i tired both western and chinese med.. but none works for mi..
i cant even go out.. cant even touch water or even on the fan...
cause if i done those... the rashes will goes bad to worse.. will spread thru out the whole body..
haiz... dunno wat happen to mi man...
stayed at home so long.. so sian.. nth to do... ytd night ben ben came visit mi... i wear
jacket and long pant... like as if it was winter.. haha... thou the weather was damn stuffy..
we nv seen each other for abt a mth... and we chat at the stair case.. lolx..
after a while.. he went home le...today he cant visit mi.. cause he said he have to
rush home do things... i wonder wat happen to him recently... looks sad...
hmm.. sian ar.... ahah... btw realli weird... now the rashes in gone.. but later at night
i will come back again till the nxt day mornin.. then in the afternoon gone again...
wth la... now i waitin for the rashes to appear.. then mayb will go to hospital ba...
mom's fren said go SGH is better but i think shld go skin specialist ma.. haha...
k la...nvm.. i will end here... byeeeeeeeeee...sob

Wahaha today is my happiest day out with ben ben... wah so happy...
we go watch the NDP at marine... hehe.. no la ,. we dun have to ticket.. jus to c the fire works..
while waitin.. we saw uniform gps marchin pass and those cute little children awaitin for their turn to perform.. so cute la...
we are stand at the stair case behind the place where the NDP is... so the plane or helicopter all fly by sooooooooooooo near la.. the sound effect is like.. damn shiok... wahaha...
we stand n waited for sooooo long ... n we chat all the way lo... haha... wat till the sky is finally dark.. oOOOOOooooooo.... time for fire works... hehe

The fire works is soooooo damn nice la.. and the bomb bomb sound.. wah realli make up heart beat almost stop... feel so high lo.. wahaha... then u imagine... watchin with ur beloved ones, huggin u from the back... wah is like so romantic la.. hehe...

how can i forget the time we spent together today.. wahaha will always remember de la...
Ooooo.. after starvin for sooooooo long... then we finish take bus back to clementi to have KFC.. as most of the shops are already closed...hehe...

And ben ben told mi tt.. this is the 2nd time he saw mi so pretty... hehe... n today he treat mi super sweet la... send mi up the lift which he soooo long nv did tt lo.. wahaha..
i m jus so happy today... i realli wish tt time will jus stop there... love ya always my cute little ben ben... hehe

Wahhh it is soooo long ago tt i blogged..

hehe...so sian.. no mood to blog lei... TIme passes by damn fast la..

Once again.. it is EXAM TIME>.< NO mood to study ar!!
ben ben also nv pei mi on tue which he always did. he when library to chiong studyin...

argh.. wat a borin tue it is... Stayin at day at home.. Haiz.. i wanted to Msg him..but i stop

myself...Wat for..as if he will care... I wonderin is he thinkin of mi too.:)..

but i dunno y the first time i think of it.. HAHA iF he will Think of mi... He will not call ben ben

lo... wahaha...SiaO-_-

How i envy those couple who are soo sweet together and love each other so much ..

will spend time for each other.. will go out..

n the guy will initiate to ask the gal out and plan every day so happily...

I always wanna go town.. but then he dun wanna go cause he said he dun like to..

wanna go shoppin.. he said go shoppin with mi so sian..

also nv buy any stuff. jus window shop..-_-.. pls la.. is there any wrong with window shoppin...

haiz..

As the same.. Nv get to watch transformer..haiz.. expected la..

he drag n drag for soooooo long.. in the end.. is he dun wanna watch...

wth la.. dun wanna watch jus say la.. i can watch with my frens lo.. keep sayin u wan u wan.. then in the end...haiz.. not the first time le...

End up.. wathcin the freakin VCD..-_-..

haix.. so damn disappointed la... wat do i do to deserve all those treatment man...

mayb i m jus not a gd gf lo.. i also knew it... mayb tts retribution towards mi ba...


Wah!! i realli have to tough journey in my live ba... mayb i will be smooth in the later stage..

Everything in my life is such a failure...

I think i must stop Blamin myself. and change my life le...

Actually onli time can prove whether the realtionship is strong or not.. or tell whether Love is

true...

As time passes by.. Love jus fades off like as if it wasnt there in the first place...

Now my internet finally can use loooooo...
haiz...but i failed for my PVL lei...have to go for the retest....
aiyo..but till now.. i also haven studied for it wor... sian diao...
Nvm la...mayb after hoilday then study lo....heeeeee

Today...hmm quite ok lo... i go science center with ben ben...
we shop at the shop there... thingy there are so interestin...hehe
n i accidentally make a toy spoilt lei..hehe then i quickly put it back lo...
luckily no 1 c it...hehe....

It was damn hot la... but then we still have a great time there lei...
N we touch the real dinosaura nails..haha...dunno izzit realli real la... but there wrote so..hehe
Hmm actually i wanna watch shows in the onmi threatre but then is soo expensive...
now no money lei..haiz

After playin for sooooo long... both of us is hungry lo... then we head to jurong west complex...
to eat the sushi... jus 99cents per plate lei... so cheap man...
When we reached there... waaaa such a long Queue lo... nvm.. we choose to wait...

We eat till damn full lo...oh 1 more thing... there got alot of shuai ger lei... OOooooooo...
wait till holiday then i go there work...hehe....

Oh ya...there is a online shop sellin brownie lei... sooooo nice lo.... n some more is like twice the size of normal brownie lei.... still can add toppin like almond,rainbow and choco chips!!!
each for jus $1.40lei... sooooo worth it lo... i finish all 3 within 2 days lei...
waaaaaaaaa so scare tt i will gain alot of weight lo...
who wanna buy can tell mi lei... cause i dun wanna buy soooooooooo many...
THey onli sell when u order 6 brownie at 1 go...but i jus want 3..hehe...
Must limit myself ma.. or else become feizuzu...later ben ben dun wan mi ar...
wahhahaha

Aiyoooo so sian... Recently my internet was down lei... i cant server the net for abt 3-4 days liao... even today i cant sever lei... but then i m sooooooo damn bored... so i went to sch jus to server the net lo...so mean while i can upload my lovely little cutie blog.. soooooo long nv upload le wor... miss it man...

Recently got alot of problems lei... my bf is again Playin tt stupid game again... argh!!!.. i go his house... he treat mi as transparent de lo...he keepin play his stupid game... play play play.. i reall feel like smashin his lappy lo.. even he eat... he have to sit in front of his lappy... i can c that he is soooooo tired... but still.. he jus sit in front of his lappy n sleep... WTH!!! is he mad???

He sleeps at 3 am in the mornin n wake up 7Am the nxt day... he onli slp like abt 4 hrs per day jus to play his stupid game... Keep scarin himself tt his fren will over take him...

on Mon... we go out... he seems so rush... we go all the way to suntec... then i wanna shop... but he dun wan... i dunno know wat the fuck he was rushin abt...then we went straight to esplanade to eat... after that... we went to c the construction there... We can c the Big ferry wheel there and we were guessin wat is the other construction there was abt....

After abt 10-15 mins there... he was rushin home...he said he wanna chiong his game... n win his fren.. as they were overtakin him if he nv chiong...WTH.. so wat if is tt.. Game izzit realli so impt to him??? bloody lo...

i wanted to went up to the esplanade.. he dun wan... said... he will bring mi go other day...bloodly excuses... he jus wanna go home asap....He reach till the extreme that he didnt even wanna go to the toilet even he is realli urgent.... WTH.....haizzzzzzz....

Wat can i dooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! we havebeen lack of communication since he is into gamin....nv call mi for half a yr... nv even bother to send mi home...nv even msg mi... when i talk to him... he seems to fed up lo...is this relationship gonna end soon?? i knew it long ago actually... it is like... i m holdin on to the realtionship tt has no future... being with a guy who dun realli love mi...

i also dunno y i m torturin myself lo...haiz...

EXAM IS COMIN!!!!!!!!!!....AMARISSSSS WAT R U STILL DOINNNN!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!
online shop everyday.... then watch youtube... DVD.... SLpin!!!!! NOW!!! even fall sick... arghhhhh... howwwwwwww...... die liao leeeee....

eh btw jus watch 200 pound dvd tt my gor borrowed.... waHHh damn nice & touchin wor... i almost cryyyyy.... eh cause mu gor is beside mi... so i control myself... dun cry out... lolx... or else so ps.... hehe...

wAh... i fall in love with tt main actor... he is soooooo damn shuai lo.... wow!!!...heeee....

Haiz.. fall sick again today... know y... cause it was drizzling outside... & i lazy to take out my little umbrella... soooooo.... haiz... sick lo... my head is damn giddy now....

I still have lots of chap haven finish studyin..howw.... haiz...

dun think so much.... or else... headache again... such a weak gal with a Fat out look...lolx...

Oh ya... Jus now i went IMM to have dinner with ben ben... hehe finally give him tt top i bought... N he like it... n i m so happy.... finally he like the present tt i give him... y m i so easily bein contented... hehe...

i knew it... i knew something will happen today... cause today is our 9th mth anniversary...
everytime we will quarrel on this day.... i wonder izzit a curse....
i have already perpare a present for him... actually i bought it 2 to 3 weeks ago...but then...i wanna wait till today then give it to him....
Before that..i have been wondering shld i give him now or shld i wait till this day...
cause as i knew... something may have crop out to spoilt the whole day...
But then... i wanna take a risk... so i decied to keep it till today....
HAiz... but then... haiz... disappointment....

i thought tt... havin mthly anni... couples will often be celebratin or wat... this day shld b a happy day... but... now... i think otherwise...mayb... every mth anni may also b a day tt the love of either party have faded... cause they been together longer...& they are startin to get tired of it...or startin to take everything for granted....

The worst part is... y he dun wanna meet mi,.. is he wanna play badminton for 2 hrs... stupid badminton....Arghhh.... i m even less important then a stupid badminton....

Of course i will feel sad after he said tt rite... then is jus haiz... then he become so work up... so fierce...

& he nv even wish mi happy anni or wat lo... when i asked him...
u forget today is wat day le ar? then he replied... ya i rmb.. i thought u forget...-____-
Pls lo... such a stupid excuse....:P
aiyo... early mornin already sooooo much prob le... sian ar....